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Although I've done many things outside of 'Home'... Home and 'caretaking of others' has true value to me as a life well-lived.
Country life, target shooting, animals, gardening, a peaceful life. I'm not into loud crowds, sports, tv, or traveling... I am truly, a quiet woman and I prefer life to be the same.
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9/15 "You can hide your weaknesses from your best of friends... but not from your worst of enemies (satan)."from CH Spurgeon's sermon 'How Saints May Help the Devil' (can be heard on YouTube - I encourage you to listen if you like truly good sermons)

9/11 "Just as the hottest place of a candle's flame is not found in the actual fire - but is instead, found above the flame... so it is with love... For it is not what kindles the flame of love which burns within the heart, that warms us, but the unseen effects of the flame..."
*~Grandmother Three Ravens~*

You know.... If we were able to 'sift' the wheat from the chaff... what would that look like in regards to this particular venue? I am not interested in playing silly games... not interested in marrying anyone at this point... just wondering if there is ANYONE who might have the ability to have a sincere conversation about most anything where there is no pressure to 'perform' OR 'conform' to the idea of some STANDARD of judgment... Be who you are... if someone buys into something you're are struggling to be, but really aren't, why would you expect it to bring any real value to your moments together? it's not YOU... How could you then expect them to value WHO YOU ARE? Don't worry about 'putting your best foot forward' because the foot that's 'not so good' will have to come into view if you actually want to 'move forward'... Otherwise you are left standing on one foot... and that doesn't work for very long.
Love who you are and give place to the hopes of who you still desire to grow into... because bumps, bruises and brokenness is part of the reason, I suspect, that we are all here on this site... but it's okay - perfection needs no mirror yet the greatest evidence of another's love is when we 'see ourselves' in, and through, another's eyes...
Be gentle with yourself and others... a lot of time is wasted on things that seem to matter today but may not matter tomorrow - this breath you have in this moment is all you can know to be truly yours, make it count for something you would be proud of if it were your last.
So know you are loved even when it does not feel like it... Sometimes LOVE has more to do with 'what we KNOW'... far more than 'what we FEEL'... so hang in there... It's far more painful to be lonely 'with someone', than to be lonely 'alone'... but a lot of us know that already.... Good luck in your efforts, if those efforts be to 'do good'...

9/9/20 A meandering of thought: When I was young, I use to think the city was 'too busy'... I liked people, but life seemed 'too busy'... I guess because anytime you interact with others, most of the time everyone is 'doing something'. Now it seems people are not 'nice' any longer... It's as though so many have a chip on their shoulder... it's strange to me that people use to look for a reason to believe the best about another person, and now it's as though it's the total opposite... like they are looking for a reason to think the worst. Odd too, people don't seem nearly as 'busy' as they use to be - well not in the same way... or for the same reasons. Now people are busy on their electronics and being 'soccer moms' and racing around searching for what has morphed into 'The American Dream'... from my point of view (from the outside looking in), I find nothing really appealing about what now seems to be 'the dream'... I just want to live a simple life but I don't think others who are competitive, like that idea. And seeing that I am not competitive, in that I guess I don't have that 'inner push' to excel past another person in having a newer car, or a bigger house, or longer finger nails... (LOL) people don't find it easy to 'impress me'... and it's really odd how that irritates people... LOL... It's almost as though they have worked hard, and given up such a large amount of their 'life' to get something with one of the major underlying reasons seeming to be to impress others - I guess with the hope of feeling good when someone is 'envious' of what they have... I think that is sad. I guess what I am meandering along in my thoughts about is that I just don't fit in. And I don't mind that at all... but I don't understand why that makes another person the focus of others energy to make someone 'fit in' when they really don't have a desire to... I think such people feed off of other's 'desire' to have what they have... especially if they cannot obtain such things for themselves... So covetous people really meet that need of those people who work so hard all their lives to make others want what they have... In the end, I don't think those who live happily satisfied, with relatively little in life, are the ones who are at a loss of understanding what is truly valuable... and are far less 'empty' within themselves, than those whose lives are 'filled' with so much...

As far as age and friendship, l have had an amazing age range of friends throughout my entire life... Age is a silly thing to build a fence out of if it defines the boundaries between who can, and cannot, have real and lasting value in our lives. I wonder why it is so easy to potentially short change ourselves by self-imposed limitations that make no logical sense??? hmmm...

Even though I am not one to be in the mix of a lot of people in a socializing type of situation, I am interested in creating community with another... or others... We as a society, have replaced the sense of community with something that seems to isolate us somehow. So many people seem to fill their hours in ways that leaves them 'vaguely empty' at the end of the day... I want moments that are 'real'... I want my time to count for something...

In thinking about things that I might want to add for those who are looking at my profile to consider whether you'd like to talk with me or not, there are a couple of things I want to make known right up front. If you are an abusive person of ANY KIND, do not bother contacting me. That includes Physical, Sexual, Emotional, and/or Psychological... Whether that abuse is directed towards animals... children... or women... that includes shoving and 'chest bumping'. If you have issues with drugs, alcohol or pornography - don't even bother reading any further down the page. The best I can do is to encourage you to seek qualified help and support from others who might help you overcome your problems.

Well... my profile is a work in progress - much like me... but for now, here's something, which is, I guess, far better than nothing...

I enjoy studying most any subject since I love learning about different things, I especially enjoy studying the Bible. Also cooking, baking, gardening, as l really desire a simple, back-to-basics (you can interpret that as: 'back to what is real, solid and comforting in life, and truly important.' : ) homestead lifestyle. I have absolutely no desire to travel. I am a true 'home body' and enjoy making a home and tending to life from that vantage point.
I have absolutely no problem getting my hands dirty. Whether gardening, landscaping, or cleaning out the chicken coop or horse barn. But I am a very clean person in regards to my home and life. If a person has animals, (inside or out), they should be properly tended to.
A home should look like someone actually cares about it. Messes and clutter happen - it's a part of an active home life and living. But keeping a home happily functional requires diligence in 'keeping it pleasantly comfortable, comforting, and welcoming'. ie. Running smoothly...
The haphazard accumulation of unusable objects piled up outside with no visible evidence of value to anyone but the weeds growing around it is not something I can find pleasure in looking at and calling 'home'.
I would like to spend my days in productive ways. I am not a couch potato by any stretch of the imagination... although I do like to read but finding things worth reading is getting more difficult... LOL
I do not own a tv. I do use the internet if I want to search out something. I am into a holistic lifestyle and desire to live in harmony with a peaceable life and those around me, as far as it is possible.
I believe in having adult, topic-focused discussions if there is a problem rather than childish outbursts and temper tantrum antics to divert the conversation from the real issues needing to be resolved. I refuse to 'fight' or even 'argue'... I don't think things get resolved by allowing emotions to dictate what is said or done. I take very seriously the concept of treating others how you would hope to be treated,... but honestly, I haven't known of very many people who are willing to put the effort into doing that. Its human nature NOT to love one's enemy... So the first contrariness you have to wrestle with is your own... in not wanting to go the extra mile... to give them 'space'... (which sometimes is simply that space of silence from you - in not lashing out or 'giving as good as you're getting' - ouch...) Silence in an argument is only painful to the one who is not speaking... if the silence is being filled with words meant to hurt - but two wrongs don't make a right - unless you're making a bunch of left turns, then you might get to where you actually want to go, eventually...
I am thinking that I would like to find someone who has some land that would like to share life as friends and companions while working towards a goal of self-suffiency and a simple, quiet life... as far as the world will permit.
'In some ways, the signs of having lived a good life is that at the end of it, you might look back and see others hoping to follow in your footsteps.'
(So consider planning the rest of your life's journey with those ones who may follow, in mind... It may be the most important part of what will be YOUR Legacy.) Love to all... and have a beautiful day.
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Just spend time talking... I like doing bible studies... Here is an interesting one and very 'telling about the times we have found ourselves thrust in to.' If you happen to read it, and like it, let me know, I have others:

My 'disclaimer': I do not expect you to simply 'accept' anything I say to you, for we each are told to 'study to show ourselves approved unto God'... You need not believe as I believe - you need to search out Truth for yourself... as you are called to do...
Establish, within yourself, a faith, based on biblical study,... Read,... study,... and 'think upon the things of God'... and remember that you should ALWAYS seek God in prayer - to ask that He give a witness to Truth - wherever it be that you find it...

So, to begin...

And no... the title is not in error... for there are, in fact, 'FIVE Horsemen' total... and by the time we conclude this study, I believe that you will find yourself agreeing.
The concept of there being 'Four Horsemen' comes from a bit of 'near-sightedness' on the part of whoever first began using that term. And their 'math error' came from the fact that they were focused on a very small range of verses within one, single, chapter of 'The Book of Revelation'. And those first commentators, in their myopic view, simply failed to 'see the big picture' of what the totality of The Book of Revelation is truly about in the expanse of all that it encompasses...

Summary: There are two riders upon white horses - one is 'the first'... and the other is 'the last', (ie. 'the fifth'), Horsemen of the Apocalypse... We find the first hint to there being correlations between these two in that they both are riding upon white horses... but this is simply the beginning of their similarities - for one is 'the real deal' while the other is an attempt to 'counterfeit in order to attempt to usurp power and positional authority over mankind', with the bottom-line being the hope of deceiving multitudes of people...
And so it is that they are connected in such a way that we must look at both of them, 'side by side'... for in the comparing of the two, we gain deeper understanding of each of them, individually... and we can better see them both - for who, and what, they truly are...

There are a couple of things we are going to look at in this lesson:
1) What do the horses themselves, symbolize?
2) Comparing of the 'vestures'... and 'the blood upon them'...
In considering the symbolism relating to the horses... there are 5 horses,... and 4 colors... The symbology of 'horses' is 'SPIRITUAL POWER'...and the color signifies their association with a specific Form/Manifestation of that Spiritual Power.
White = 'spiritual purity'... but the first white horse is one ridden by 'the embodiment of deceit'... The color, (white), in regards to the first horse, is simply an imitation created as a deceitful ploy to mislead people... So the first white horse is not reflective of 'spiritual purity' - but only of the hopes of it's rider to convince others that he is the embodiment of 'spiritual purity'...
Yet, the rider of the second white horse is in fact, the true embodiment of 'spiritual purity', proven so beyond question or doubt...
Red = the spirit of anger, rage, bloodshed, death - the red horse's rider is given 'POWER to make war' - energy spent 'against life'
Black = the spirit of cold, calculated action,... unemotional, detached 'working of the plan' - money and greed is the motivating force; the black horse's rider is given 'POWER to control/manipulate commerce' with 'unjust scales'
The Pale Horse 'chloros'... I will step out of the confines of 'defined decorum' and say it is not as most might think of it or describe it... It is not a solid color... I am convinced that were this particular 'horse', (which is actually 'a spirit') to be shown to mankind - it's visage would be that of a 'dappled horse'... the color would appear to be a dappling of tan-yellow-gray and yellowish-green... very much like the variegated, splotchy colors of a healing bruise... and this is truly 'the color of impending death'... this horse's rider, (Death) is given the corresponding POWER relating to this particular spirit/horse...
And just for something for you to 'think upon' - consider this: 'The Pale Horse' is like all the other 'horses' - in that the horses represent 'a power,... spiritual power... given into the hands of each, particular rider'... There is a subtle, yet necessary, interplay between 'The Pale Horse' and his rider, 'Death'...

There are all the 'clues' needed in the wording of the verse... Rev 6:8... 'and power was given unto THEM over the fourth part of the earth TO KILL WITH SWORD... AND WITH HUNGER... AND WITH DEATH... AND WITH THE BEASTS OF THE EARTH...'
Sword – verse 4 Hunger – verse 6 Death – verse 8 (illness is sin) Beasts – the demons embodying fallen men

First of all the word 'THEM' refers to 'the Horse AND the Rider' (ie. 'Death'), NOT to 'Death and Hell'... Not if you are thinking of this word, 'Hell', as being a reference to 'the place called 'Hell', aka: 'The Bottomless Pit'...because the place within the earth - as says the bible - known as 'Hell', has no 'active power of influence' by which it can 'take life'... for it is, in a fashion, 'set apart from life'... There is a veil between the dwelling places of the living and the dead...

But it is not referring to 'Hell - The Place'... but rather 'Hell - The Inhabitants'... as in 'and Hell followed with him...' There are two aspects to the concept of the 'Hell's Inhabitants'... I will just go into the first for now... for these are the ones which are most pertinent to this discussion... and Hell followed with him...' It appears that 'the foot soldiers' are the unembodied demons, who are accompanying Death in order to 'drag' or 'drive' the newly deceased souls into Hell... (if that be 'their place' - until the 'Lake of Fire and Brimstone' is set in play)... Job 18:18 'He, (the wicked), shall be driven from light, (life), into darkness, (death), and CHASED (driven) OUT OF THIS WORLD.

Just as the Messiah will be accompanied by an innumerable multitude known as 'the armies of Heaven'... so shall 'Death be accompanied by a multitude, which in like fashion, is waiting their release from the depths of Hell, they are 'the armies of Hell' described in Ezekiel 32.
The FIRST RIDER OF THE WHITE HORSE in Rev 6:2 is an imitator of the Messiah in regards to 'spiritual matters' - whose hopes are of usurping, through deception, the Messiah's position and authority amongst men...
The SECOND RIDER OF THE WHITE HORSE in Rev 19:11 is the TRUE MESSIAH, as he is portrayed at the time of his second coming, in Revelation 19...

The verses pertaining to these 'Five Horses span from Revelation 6:1-19:21... yes, almost the entire book of revelation is concerning the time of these 'Five Horses of the Apocalypse'...

And the time of their span within history is far longer than most people realize - many people seem to think that the Book of Revelation relates to a very small fraction of 'earthly time'... this is not so... It actually spans a period from the time before Messiah's crucifixion until the very end of all things, at least in our limited concept of earthly thought and events...

So, I will now share with you my thoughts on these things:
Overall, there are, as I said - FIVE horses... they are as follows:
NOTE: We, pretty much by necessity, need to look at the FIRST and the LAST (ie the FIRST and the FIFTH) horses of the apocalypse at the same time... you'll quickly see why, I think....

Let's look at the verses and then we will 'pull them apart and look deeper'...

the FIRST­ WHITE HORSE: Revelation 6:1-2
1 'And I saw when the Lamb opened one of the seals, and I heard, as it were the noise of thunder, one of the four beasts saying, "Come and see."
2 And I saw, and behold a white horse: and he that sat on him had a bow; and a crown was given unto him: and he went forth conquering, and to conquer.

and the LAST, ie. the FIFTH HORSE: Revelation 19:11-16
11 And I saw heaven opened, and behold a white horse; and he that sat upon him was called Faithful and True, and in righteousness he doth judge and make war.
12 His eyes were as a flame of fire, and on his head were many crowns; and he had a name written, that no man knew, but he himself.
13 And he was clothed with a vesture dipped in blood: and his name is called The Word of God.
14 And the armies which were in heaven followed him upon white horses, clothed in fine linen, white and clean.
15 And out of his mouth goeth a sharp sword, that with it he should smite the nations: and he shall rule them with a rod of iron: and he treadeth the winepress of the fierceness and wrath of Almighty God.
16 And he hath on his vesture and on his thigh a name written, King Of Kings, And Lord Of Lords.

- and behold a white horse there are two identical comments, this is the first occurrence in 6:1 and the second one is in 19:11 And I saw heaven opened, and behold a white horse...

If we look at these two sets of verses side by side, with understanding of the concepts, we find that we can draw information from both that 'opens our deeper understanding' of what is being laid before us... if we are willing to 'hear' the call to "come and see"... for BEHOLD! - A WHITE HORSE...

BOTH occurrences,... separately and individually,... point to 'a figure in a position of authority' holding and working within the power of the spirit manifested within them and the authority to use such power is given, BY THE CROWNS which are 'given to them'... NOT by Sword or 'BOW'... The concept of 'the bow' in regards to the First White Horse's Rider, is terribly misunderstood and we will look at this now...

-and he that sat on him had a bow... This is a MAJOR STUMBLING BLOCK for many people... I have told you that the new Concordances are 'corrupted' (if truth be known - after years of study - it honestly appears that they are intentionally attempting to 'hide things') - anyway, this is one of the examples: the word 'bow' is defined in the older concordances as a piece of material draped as a vesture/vestment type of apparel/adornment upon a person - NOT A 'BOW' AS IN 'BOW AND ARROW'!!!

Now, for those of you who know my thoughts on satan's counterfeiting techniques, after thinking upon all the parts of these things in comparison - this will make a great deal of sense to you...

The rider of the FIRST WHITE HORSE is wearing a 'cloth' as a vesture/vestment - this is satan's counterfeit of the True Vesture... and the TRUE VESTURE is found on it's counterpart as seen on the rider of the SECOND WHITE HORSE...

Revelation 19:13 'And he was clothed with a vesture dipped in blood: and his name is called The Word of God.'

- a vesture dipped in blood... in this we see the symbolic imagery of Yahushuah taking upon himself' the role of Saviour... This can be seen in that his wearing of 'a vesture dipped in blood' symbolizes that those who have 'been baptized through immersion have been covered in the blood of him and have thereby 'put on Christ/Messiah'... through the act of 'baptism' which itself is defined as 'dipping something/someone in total submersion, within a liquid'...

So we would define the symbology as follows:
the vesture - Yahushuah's robe and role as 'High Priest', and the results of his act of Atonement for our benefit...

Leviticus 8:30 'And Moses took of the anointing oil, and of the blood which was upon the altar, and sprinkled it upon Aaron, and upon his garments, and upon his sons, and upon his sons' garments with him; and sanctified Aaron, and his garments, and his sons, and his sons' garments with him.'

- dipped in blood - baptism by which our sins are covered and we are cleansed...

Revelation:13-14 'And one of the elders answered, saying unto me, "What are these which are arrayed in white robes? and whence came they?" And I said unto him, "Sir, thou knowest." And he said to me, "These are they which came out of great tribulation, and have washed their robes, and made them white in the blood of the Lamb."

Yahushuah, in his wearing the vesture portrays that we, through his blood and his role as High Priest acting on our behalf, allows us to symbolically 'put on Messiah/Christ' - through him and his role, we are able to be 'sanctified'...

Galatians 3:27 'For as many of you as have been baptized into Christ have put on Christ.'

Now interestingly, when Yahushuah is returning to the earth in ‘the vesture dipped in blood’, we can see the correlation of this being ‘the blood of the Lamb of God’ in regards to his coming forth from Heaven representing that position of authority as High Priest. But now too, in taking upon himself, the role of Captain of the Hosts of Heaven, he has an appointed destiny, in regards to that same vesture, but with a new circumstance that will alter the situation to reflect his new role as Captain of the Host… for when the battle begins, the blood of the Lamb upon the vesture will be what we might think of as a ‘representation of God’s remembrance’, as a symbol for the very reason for God Almighty’s wrath – displayed in the very forefront of the confrontation, being worn by ‘the Captain of God’s Heavenly Army’ – and what a mighty and fearful sight that will be – especially for those who are guilty of having shed the blood of both The Lamb and the Saints… And it will be in the very heat of battle that ‘the blood of the innocents’ (ie. the Lamb, and in proxy, those who are ‘under the blood’ of Christ/Messiah), will be replaced by the shed blood of ‘the guilty’ – so ‘the blood of the innocent’ will be replaced by ‘the blood of the guilty’, for it is ‘The Day of Vengeance’, spoken of in Isaiah 61… For in Isaiah 61:1-2a, we have the representation of the first part of this understanding: Yahushush coming as a ministering emissary of God Almighty – and at the end of his ‘ministry’, he entered into the position of our High Priest before God the Father until ‘the time of restitution of all things’ (Acts 3:21)… (‘restitution’ being ‘a rightful, shall we say, Righteous, Judgement, calling for the payment of debts that have been incurred by those owing the debt’ – in this case we are talking about ‘a sin debt’.) And so we then see that same verse of Isaiah 61:2b finishing out with the declaration of Yahushuah’s future return from the Heavenly Realm as the one who will bring in ‘The Day of Vengeance of our God’.
So the blood upon the vesture of the TRUE MESSIAH is symbolic of the shedding of HIS LIFE BLOOD, for our benefit... But the opposite/counterfeit is true for the false Christ, who rides the FIRST WHITE HORSE... for there is also a vesture (the 'bow') - which is symbol of this positional power's supposed authority as a fake/false christ... but the blood upon this vesture is the 'blood of innocents' - shed for the benefit of the positional power of the fake/false christ...
So again, with the arrival of the 5th Horse of the Apocalypse, (which is the 2nd White Horse of the Apocalypse), this will be the time when ‘the blood of the innocent’ will be replaced by ‘the blood of the guilty’. Revelation 19:13-15 and Isaiah 63:1-4

NEXT: We look at 'The CROWNS'... (Part Two is also posted, if you're interested...)

God bless those who hunger and thirst after righteousness - for they (we) will be filled. Matthew 5:6
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