Intermittent Connection

Posted : 6 May, 2019 07:19 PM

I grew up in a Christian family. My dad used to be a pastor. Went to a Christian school throughout Elementary. Been reading the bible the first few years of my life. Was raised by my grandma who would wake up 3 in the morning to pray and then we would go to church spend the whole day their til noon since she's part of the choir. From then until now. Im not sure what happened. Im very far from who I was. Surrounding myself with people who I know would help me get closer to Him but there's this invisible thread, always finding it's way to knock my cards down. Every corner I turn there's temptation. And everything hurts. I want to be alone. But I dont want to be left alone. I think I hurt people. I know what to do. At the same time I dont. I used to hear His voice but now I dont.