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CrystalKC
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WELL Hi here's a piece of my heartPosted : 29 Dec, 2012 09:43 PMI understand what you are saying and yes it is/ was my job as a wife to build him up and even as an unbeleiver .I have to say I did try and work toward this end. I prayed and i still pray for him to come to know Christ's love and to submit and commit . I do not feel ashamed because of this failed marriage I am not happy with how it ended and I loved him so very much my heart still aches that it is to be how it is especially considering we have a child who now has to grow up with a broken family. However he chose to leave I cannot change, i cannot deny Christ for any man just to see if it would work out. It was not the being in church that was the root of the problem and i whole heartedly believe that as a christian we should be highly involved in church no not the building or the activities but the body to surround yourselves with fellow believers to build each other up to be involved in each others lives intercede on each others behalf to be they body and hold each other e and keep pointing to Christ. so yes i try to be faithfull in church and when he was at this point of saying he did not believe in God at all and was just going to make me happy all that time i had two sides and the enemy did tempt me to consider not going to church or being in bible study and yes for a few weeks i was hurt and didn't attend I sat at my table in the word prayed hard at all time sna d then I just felt that God would be better glorified in me taking my faith standing up and standing firm in him. so i went back to church i tried to spend time with my husband tried to encourage him to spend time with me and our daughter. he chose other things as priority he wanted out because he wanted to live his life the way he wants with no responsibility and no conviction to the choices he makes and who they effect. yes I know that i failed , but I also feel I won I have a much deeper relationship with my lord in trusting him and in taking this faith he put in me and holding onto it as tight as I can. I will fail i will make mistakes but that he loves me unconditionally and fully and is building me up to do his work even out of the ashes of my brokeness and failures. GOD is completely worth having made the choice to follow at risk of losing my husband I have many regrets but that choice will never be one of them and as paul said if the unbeleiving spouse leaves... you are called to peace... I did not push him out, i prayed, God answered ... sometimes answer is no. I am called to peace. My hope is in the Lord
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CrystalKC
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WELL Hi here's a piece of my heartPosted : 21 Dec, 2012 08:15 AMI pray for a man that can deal with God being the head of my life and encourage me in this. Who will be a Godly example of a man/father/husband to my daughter.
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