I can relate big time. I've felt like this before - just wanting to go home, to be with God, to not have to deal with this life anymore. Yep. Been there. Feeling like nothing I do is right, like I don't fit in anywhere, like I'm someone that people just tolerate because they have to. But then I made the decision to stop listening to what satan had to say about me and listen to what God said for a change. And this is what your poem turned into:
My tears are silent, but You hear them. And sometimes, You cry with me. Always, You hold me while I cry.
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I just wanted to know love, but I was too wrapped up in pity to see that Your love has always been there.
I wanted to make someone happy, but in order to do that, I had to start with loving myself as You love me.
I was made to be lonely and lowly for a season so I can come to know You - to depend on You - so that others can learn from my testimony and grow in Your love also.
I have only had pain and sadness, but as I look at Your word, it was replaced with gratefulness and joy.
I make people cry and not smile sometimes, because I am still human. But You are perfecting me and I know You can change me.
I was under the curse, but thanks to You, now I'm blessed.
I am a test people must endure, but if they can tolerate my sense of humor for a little while, they'll find that I would do anything I can to help them. :)
I don't know what to do, so thank you Lord that I'm not the one in control anymore.
I want to go home, take me home Father, but not until I've finished everything You intended for me to do here.
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My Father. My Abba. I love You, too.
It gets better. And better. And better. Just trust Him.
I can relate. I feel this way every day i think. I have been working on my relationship with the Lord for a while now. I know that God has to be my husband right now, but it's not a person with skin on near me. I don't understand how the Lord works. I mean I know, but I feel left out of the loop at times.
