Thanks for the encouragement. Yeah, I do know what to do, I just don't want to go through the pain of putting a dead dream to rest. I got a glmpse, in the beginning, of what it could be to have a two parent household, with someone I cared deeply for. That is a hard dream to put to rest, at least for now. Any advice on how to handle the grief would be appreciated.
Okay, so, I met this guy about 2 and 1/2 months ago. He was GREAT. He brought me roses, declared his love, and told me he wanted to spend the rest of his life with me. Everything was awesome. He even took to my two daughters, ages 14 and 16, right away. He fell into the roll of father figure easily. I thought everything was going fine. We had even fallen into a bit of a routine.
Then, all of a sudden, he became scared to commit to anyone or anything other than God and work. What's up with that? Well, little did I know, there was an even larger storm lurking. Hs ex-fiance was IM'ing him without my knowledge. He decided, without consulting me, to meet with her and "help her out" with her bills by MOVING IN with her! Okay, so, I can be a bit insecure at times but, I ask, am I wrong to say if you do this my girls and I are outta here?
Why and how do I pick the ones who are not going to stay true to our relationship or his word? I told him if he did that I would have to say its been great, I love you, and goodbye, for my sake and the sake of my girls. Am I wrong?
I really thought he was one I could trust. I let myself fall hard and fast for him only to have him totally crush my heart. I'll be alright because I have God's love and the love of my girls to sustain but, for that brief moment I also knew what it felt like to truly be #1 in someone's life, before the rug was pulled out from under me. Oh, did I mention that I am single, never married, never in a serious relationship before and my girls are adopted?
I guess I have to go back to struggling with being content in my singleness. That pretty much sucks! Sorry, just needed to vent. Thanks for listening.