I need to share this story maybe more than once... so this exact story is also in another forum... I hope that's ok.
I've been in a relationship every year that I've been in school, since freshmen year of high school, (I am a Sophomore at Troy University) and every single one of those relationships ended badly. I've never had a boyfriend tell me I was beautiful if he didn't want something from me. My junior and senior year I dated this guy off an on... things got pretty serious... until I found out he had 13 other girls, throughout the 2 years we dated. Now, he's my best friend. But nothing holds me back from a relationship with someone new like my last boyfriend... or should I say "Fiance." My last boyfriend claimed himself as christian, and has been my best friend since the 8th grade, until we started dating.
We dated for 2 months before the first time he hit me... the night he asked me to Marry him I was afraid what would happen to me had I said no. I had bruises on me after every time we saw each other, and he lived 2 hours away at the time. I wished to not be alive... a lot during this time. We were together for 8 months, and is I didn't preform some kinda role play when I saw him... I'd get more bruises. Well, during our relationship... I was raped, but I wasn't aware that I was raped until I explained to a friend what happened... and they told me I had been. He heard I had sex with another man and he lost it... I bruise very easily now... He told me that he was leaving me because I "cheated" on him and he found someone else. I didn't even get to explain. He is now dating a 16 year old girl, and he attends the same school as I do. I quiver every time I see him, but fortunately I have REALLY great friends, that protect me.
This year I have grown closer to god... until now... I didn't believe there was a god.
I am very paranoid when people are mad... but I some how always keep a smile on my face. I really need to find a guy that won't tell me I am fat, ugly, and not good enough. I need someone who loves me for me... but I thought that I needed to share my story 1. so people can see why i am the way i am, 2. because if a potential guy reads this... he needs to be warned, and 3. because people need to know they aren't alone.
Bless your heart, dear. Thank you for sharing this. I'll pray the Lord finds you one awesome husband, and shows his grace, power and love to you. It's good to feel redeemed and start anew, the blood of Jesus washes all our sins away when we repent. I really hope the rest of this year, and the years to follow hold amazing things for you. If you need anyone to talk to, talk to me! I enjoy talking, and I'm told I have way too much time on my hands. :)
Bless your heart, dear. Thank you for sharing this. I'll pray the Lord finds you one awesome husband, and shows his grace, power and love to you. It's good to feel redeemed and start anew, the blood of Jesus washes all our sins away when we repent. I really hope the rest of this year, and the years to follow hold amazing things for you. If you need anyone to talk to, talk to me! I enjoy talking, and I'm told I have way too much time on my hands. :)
Sometimes we believe in our own ways to find a perfect guy for us, we go in different dating site to find a better husband or partner in life. I think that is not good..
The best way is to ask God, to provide a husband who is in your Christian community and really a trusted Christians..
I also have some mistakes of finding a true Christian partner but one Pastor told me about Isaiah 54, I think it over and over, another man says i have to focus my self to my ministry in singing and take care of my family because as in Isaiah 54 tells that God will take care of those widow like me...
