Reason I posted this here, is I rarely hear women reccount about the one that got away. Maybe a few of you will induldge us with a story from your past :)
Oky Doky�High School�I was a freshman. A Tiny girl, long haired, plain jane, insecure, quite, loner. He was a Senior. Tall man, long dark hair, bluest eyes and a smile that knocked my socks off�his name is Jeff B****I just couldn�t & wouldn�t go up and talk to him�Never a day went by that I did not see him or think about him�
5 years after Graduating�I was still in a relationship from High School with a man ( boy friend )�Well�one day I was walkin through the track my boy friend lived in�on my way to the liquior store for a soda an what nots�I saw him�Jeff�I froze like a deer in the headlights�He saw me and smiled�I melted�He called out to me�Hey ! Jude�I remember you�from High School�you were that cute lil skinny gal that always blushed when you saw me�I said�Yup !�that�s me alright�and we both laughed�He asked me to sit a spell and talk�and of course I did�We talked for hours and then I had to get goin�
I kept running into him�and I really enjoyed being with him�doing silly stuff and just hangin out�He was sweet and kind, always made me laugh�it never got any further than that�.Because just as easily as I had walked into his life�I walked out of it because I got all confused inside�and I ended up marrieing my boy friend from high school�which didn�t work out�divorced at 23 years of age�
Well�10 years later I ran into Jeff again�this time�He called out to me in front of everyone�Hey ! Jude�where did you go ?�Come sit with me and talk�I did�He asked�Why did you just disappear�I wanted to Marry you�it was awkward after you left�my heart melted�
Mine did to�non the less�for the One I let get away and the One I hurt in the process�
We talked for a long while but never did I answer his question�He told me he got a gal pregnant after I disappeared and married her�they have 2 children�and moved out of Cali to get away from the Life Style�My reply�Not a day has gone by that I have not thought and wondered what and where of you�I�m happy for you and yours�His reply�I really wanted to Marry you and you to have my babies�I looked for you but couldn�t find you�I guess it just wasn�t in the cards�I guess not�
I ran into Jeff again the next day and met his wife and kids�A really nice family�Still�to this day�Not a Day goes by that I do not think of Him�
The Moral of this True Story�There are 3�
Never let Confusion, Emotions or Fear make up the Mind of your Heart�
ok I've got one but keep in mind this was pre-Jesus, approximately 20 years ago.
well a friend of mine and I went to a concert and met 2 guys. I was pretty shy toward guys but I always wanted to party. If they happen to be there, then I was like whatever, that's cool...I was never boy crazy..put it that way.
anyhow, I met this guy named Manny, we really hit it off. He was so Mmm handsome and rugged but sweet, too.After a couple months he was anxious for me to meet his family. I didnt get it...I didnt understand that he liked me for more than someone to hang out with. I was only looking to hang out and have fun, my emotions seemed to be turned off until I met Jesus. so, this went on for a few years, meanwhile we were both seeing other people...(well I know I was).
I got worse with the partying and making money the wrong way (drugs). I got really strung out and apparently he had been trying to get a hold of me and popped up at my house one day and took one look at me and started to cry. He kept trying to get me to admit what I was doing and I wouldnt.
I wouldnt even look at his face, I was embarassed. Seeing him reminded me of when my life was semi-normal and I wanted that back. He begged me to stop using, he told me "please stop hurting yourself, I want to have a family with you" and I could only say "why would you want me?" he said "dont talk like that, I love you and want us to be together"..all the while he has tears streaming down his face and he's on one knee holding onto my hand tightly while I was sitting in a rocking chair looking the other way.
He kept on but I felt nothing...hard as a rock.
Today when I think about it, it makes me cry because I know I hurt him, he exposed his feelings to me and I rejected him and I still feel bad about it. I wish I could see him at least once and tell him that I'm sorry. I'm not that person anymore.
He was the type that would take me out and then make sure I was home safely or he would take me to his house under his moms roof and put me to sleep in his bed while he slept on the floor. (i would be wasted of course) He did that for years and i really liked him but i never liked the feeling of missing someone. So with me not thinking he really liked me, I would go out with other men.
Today I know the truth and know who I am in Christ most of all. Each time I have the opportunity I try to help others realize who they are in Him as well and understand their value and destiny in Jesus.